She just died like 17 times in that fight
Want to know who you really are?
Real characters of who you are come out naturally, meaning before even thinking about it.
If a car cuts in, what’s your first initial thought/emotion?
When someone gives you a hard time, what’s your initial reaction?
What’s your initial thought after you wake up?
If you answered: angry, bitter, selfish…that’s who you are.
We can change our natural behaviors to more appropriate behaviors after thinking about it. It may fool the eyes of men for awhile. The appropriate behaviors may continue for awhile. But if those behaviors are not from your characters, they’re going to stop sooner or later.
This is one way of knowing more about you.
By the time you get to middle school, or even earlier, you’re implicitly taught by the world to always have your guard/wall up, so you don’t emotionally breakdown everyday. But this led our society into so individualistic where it’s all about their survival first. And this mindset has seeped into our spiritual mind too.
We can’t have walls up between your relationship with God. Have faith. Like those trust exercise where one falls expecting other will catch you, expect God to be there for you. Be vulnerable before God. If God say, do this, even though you think it’s little awkward or illogical, do it and see what God does in your life.
Christianity is not about knowing God. It’s experiencing God. It’s about having relationship. Get out of the lukewarm, comfort zone. Take a leap of faith and see what God does.